Depressed state-of-mind.......

This week's depression cooking took a backseat to more pressing matters. My father was admitted to a nursing home with terminal cancer. He did not tell anyone in the family that he was sick. It came as a complete shock the whole family. He is on a pain management program at the nursing home, but that is all they can do. He was given a few weeks, then a few days and now it seems we are at hours. I have been serving more convenience foods because my life is so hectic right now. I am taking my life hour-by-hour also. Every time I hear the phone ring, My heart sinks. My grandmother passed away in 2005 from cancer. I considered her my mother. Luckily, I did not have to do any of the end-of-life tasks because she had 4 children. I am my father's only child. It has been very difficult to discuss funeral arrangements and obituaries. His sister ( My aunt) has been a wonderful support for me and him through this horrible time. My heart goes out to all of you who have lost a parent.